The ‘Night’ Life
Yes, I have yet again managed to neglect this blog of mine 
I have many drafts which will remain unpublished for awhile…
The ‘Night’ Life? No, I don’t mean party-ing to the wee hours of the morning.. It actually involves working right through the night! I forgot how much I hated nights (after all it was some 6 months ago since I did my last lot of night shifts). Yesterday literally swept me off my feet. I was totally unprepared for a full on night, with multiple MET calls and Code Blue. What’s more, I am covering a resident job (all the specialty medicine *jaw drop*). Pretty depressing to say the least. Am thankful however that my other colleagues on nights were a great bunch to work with 
Went home feeling crappy and seriously reconsidered my career in medicine (nb. I have silly thoughts and make silly decisions when I am sleep deprived). LOL! Said a quick prayer, and banished all those silly demoralising thoughts, and take them captive. Shortly, I was off to snoozeland before I could even say AMEN. Woken up 6 hours later by Chris who said he’ll make me a quick meal fix before heading to church. At that point, I probably had a GCS of 5, with mumbles and groanings that no one can understand, and the thought of not going to church seemed ‘wise’ at that time (see I told you I make silly decisions when I’m sleep deprived!).
Cut the long story short, I finally mustered enough energy to get up and go to church. On the way, it was POURING! To top it off, I had pretty severe colicky abdominal pain, and I was thinking to myself, is it even worth going to church in this state (especially since we were already 15-20 minutes late)? You know what. We still went. And you know what? BEST decision ever! Church, once again, was AWESOME! That’s just putting it mildly. I can’t describe how thankful I am to be a part of Planetshakers, a church that has such a big heart and big vision, and big revelation of who Jesus is. Every Sunday, I leave church encouraged, rejuvenated and just PUMPED! I have no doubt that God brought us to Melbourne not only for work, but to connect us to this amazing family called Planetshakers.
Left church with 3 things:
1) painfree!!
2) after my traumatising night yesterday, my confidence was pretty affected. and I realized how fearful I was when confronted with impending death. It was crazy to say the least. I don’t have problems with death, I do have problems with dying though.. and I also noticed that when I became fearful and tense up, I don’t know what to do! I didn’t even think of praying. Ps Matt spoke today about how when you become fearFULL, then you become faithLESS. How true! and God reminded me to pray before I enter the room to review the patient, pray before going in for the MET call/code blue. He also gave me this brilliant idea, when we eventually set up a Christian based hospital in the future, when a MET call/code blue is activated, we also activate a prayer and intercessory team. How awesome is that?
3) totally recharged for work tonight
While tonight was no less busy than yesterday night (well I was working non stop for the past 5.5 hours, I finally got a break and felt the need to write all of this down, lest I forget and before I get paged agaiN!!), I felt at peace. When the Spirit of the Lord is upon me, there is wisdom! I was able to work through my list of jobs, and managed the patients well, without getting flustered.
And I thank God for sending little angels to remind me why I do what I do. On the way to work, I met one of my patient’s son. He thanked me and said that he would remember me well (well, you know how most ang mohs think all Asians look alike), I looked after his mom some 10 weeks ago. His mom presented with chest pain, but eventually had a stroke which had been overlooked initially cos it presented atypically. I saw her with a lateral gaze and felt something within my spirit that it wasn’t right and did a neuro exam on her, which was consistent with a stroke. I thank God for that nudge, otherwise she would’ve not make it. I explained that it was my duty and he didn’t have to thank me for it. I thank God so so much for this platform to be able to touch lives, and I don’t ever want to grow numb to His voice, or His nudge, because He is the giver of life, and I want people to experience this life through His touch. So yes, I still want to be a doctor. Am not reconsidering my career in medicine at this stage. LOL.
Well, to sum it up, I still HATE nights and the thing it does to my sleeping patterns and lonely lifestyle. But it ain’t all that bad. Have a blessed week peeps!
You are favoured, and you are blessed because of His finished work on the cross. Never, ever, forget that.
i’m encouraged.