A day in the life of an intern…
Two months into internship, already! It seemed like yesterday when I walked into IMU, a bit nervous, a bit excited, a bit lonely, a bit everything! It also seemed like yesterday, th tangible feeling of passing my 5th year exams, and moving on to pre-internships in 6th year, confident that I am ready to conquer the world.
Here I am now, almost done with my first rotation of the year. Most days, I enjoy my time at work. Most of my colleagues and patients have been lovely, and it always makes me feel bad when they thank me after I’ve jabbed them a couple of times -_-” Of course, these include days when your pager goes off non-stop (and I used to think holding a pager was COOL), you feel like throwing it against the wall (but knowing how hardy these little twits are, they’ll probably continue ringing anyway). Or days when you are so busy that you don’t even remember when was the last time you had something to eat or drink. On other days, you would have to deal with patients who are really sick, patients who die, or patients who are just so confused – either way, it’s really sad.
Today is one of those sad days. I guess it affected me much more because I had just seen him a few hours ago and he seemed fine. I suppose life’s fragile that way. Staring at the lifeless body, I almost choked in tears.
I suppose it doesn’t help that I’m a bit of an emotional, sappy person. So I’ve definitely ruled out Psychiatry/Geriatrics/General Medicine. That’s also making me reconsider doing Paediatrics. It just demands too much emotionally – I very much prefer healthy kids.
Otherwise, it’s been a relatively quiet night, hopefully the rest of the night stays this way. It would also mark the last of my medical nights before heading back to Emergency for two weeks.
Have been on night shifts for the past 4 weeks which has been a good learning experience. Although I’m not liking the hours and the effect it has on my body/sleeping pattern/life in general. Or the lack of “life” (it’s pretty much been eat sleep work).
In church today, this thought just kept resounding in my head..
GOD, don’t live (life) without Him.
